What is the universe?

I have been exactly 1 hour 36 minutes of self medicating alone. If you have the time, this may seem pretty interesting and outside the box, so please read with ease and stop whenever you'd like. I'll keep this very discreet. Is it true about the aliens. I just need a yes or no. Are you a diagnosed schizoprenic. Yes or No. I am not being an ***, I just need to know. How old are you. What is your theory of life, is it along the lines of religion is bullshit, we havent found out anything yet, we are being controlled by the system, our real goal in life is to strive in technology and find out what the universe is. But then you said the distant ET are manipulating us? IF they are, would we truly be able to find out what the universe is? I really think the universe is older than 13.5 billion years old, I think more like trillions and if so.... just think of the chances there were intelligent life 5 billion or 600billion years ago right? Since the universe is so diverse, they could of course have been earth-like planets billions of years ago, possibly intelligent life existed or they became intelligent enough to habitat other planets so they survived and these are not humans but intelligent AIs so advanced having been developed for billions of years. Honestly these intelligences must be Giants, max range probably millions of times larger than we, thinking from the perspective that the sun is million times bigger than the earth, yet there are stars and planets in other galaxies, even our own that are again millions of times bigger than the sun....... wow, so I mean I came to one theory that I must not share....We humans developed tech such as nuclear fusions, built mive structures starting from pyramids, to bridges, skyscrs..... imagine.... these million times bigger intelligences that have evolved and survived billions of years before us...Why not could They not have created something so mive, something so tremendous in size, energy, space, something that cannot be understandabe to a mere human, like placing an ANT on a television, will it know what it is? how it operates? This something we cannot understand, that THEY have created...might..just be The Universe... =) Please, tell me what you think, I need answers desperately, I'm searching for the truth.